i'm crying. crying. unless it's not tears, but sweat. and i dun think it's sweat. and there's blood. really rather dark colour of blood jus dripping. morbid, i know, but there's something mesmerising about watching blood. it's the essence of life. literally. and i dun know when my tears will stop. yyyyyy? and the blood... suffice to say that i feel like dying.

there are times i question my own sanity... or is it insanity? this sounds so familiar, like i've said it before. i'm also trying to remember when was the last time i proudly proclaimed with a smile on my face that "life is beautiful". apparently, not too long ago. less than a week ago i would suppose. but things change. people get over stuff. i've jus gotten over my stupidity that the world is alright.

argh!! WAD HAPPENED? I'M NOT LIKE THAT. i'm not pessimistic girl all the time!

*repeat after self: life is beautiful, i must remember to see the joy in daily stuff.*

but right this moment, life is definately not looking up. it's not even looking down. it's stuck in a grind. stuck. i should throw myself off a cliff. someone said, i cant remember who: *i say to the world:"hi world!" and the worst fear is that the world says back:"So wad?"* it pretty much sums up everything. i think i would fear that too. not being known. "being known" in the sense that no one can remember me, and i want to walk to my grave knowing that i've influenced some people's lives and made their lives either better or worse of. hee

once again, yy is sick... *moans*.... y yy? *grumbles*

nvm, life goes on. *big grin*

*big grin fades*

*someone shoots the fingers that keep on doing stupid things like using the ********

*finger starts bleeding, but it still continues typing ************* ARGH*******

*finger goes out of control* GFuf3rg90-=0joipj

*christine slaps finger, it stops typing. finally. the evil is destroyed*

vkb4hoih8035... ARGH!!! *finger twitches, it's ALIVE again!!!! *

*christine slaps herself for being mentally unstable*

ok, better do this.

name : christine (the best)

dob: 13 august, and dun anyone forget it

zodiac sign: leo

hobbies: driving sane people insane.
making people's life hell.
having all the fun i can have while i;m still alive.
coming up with strange but logical sayings.

top 10 songs in no particular order:

yan huo de ji je (F4)
crawling (linkin park)
somewhere i belong (linkin park)
beautiful ones (suede)
one love (blue)
blow winds (saiyuki song)
long de chuan ren (lee hom)
WHY (lee hom)
cheeky song (cheeky girls)
crash and burn (savage garden)

fav manga : saiyuki (wad else)

some sayings of mine:

My idea of an agreeable person is a person who agrees with me
I can only please one person each day. Today is not your day. Tomorrow isn't looking good either.
I'm not as think as you drunk I am
I need not suffer in silence when I can still moan, whimper, and complain
Power corrupts, but absolute power is kinda neat
I intend to live forever. So far, so good!
Money can't buy happiness; but it sure makes misery easier to live with
Warning: Trespassers will be shot
Warning: Survivors will be shot again
I don't have an attitude; I have a personality you can't handle

jia you to sonya!!! i bet u're knock them dead tomorrow during the speech competitions. i have faith in you that's never misplaced. i hope. i know you can do anything once you've set your mind to it. and i really liked ur style. feeling jealous that i can never atain that level of english that you can. but then again, me and yy and u r all A students... (in eng) it's just that u're much better than us!!! :)

good luck!! may the force be with you.

"Do or do not. there is no try." Yoda- Star Wars

hai, so bored. icks. i'm looking at my fingers while i type, and i think there're pretty nice looking, not that thin and slim and all that, but still long... ok, fine, normally, i dun look at my fingers unless i;'m playing the piano and then i start gloating. gloating at all those people who dun play piano and have short fingers. muahahaha. evil. evil.

hope i will be free on friday, i always cant seem to get people to go out with me on friday. like a permanent thing, ya know?
yy, she's always not sure, i mean, she rather go with someone else other than me, and i cant say i blame her, but she's the best to go out with, only thing is i gotta "book" her. so, no for the permanent thing.

Benita, we'll be going out if she wasn't in syf, but then again, since she does have choir....

Gladys, she ah, sometimes, not free. nothing more to be said

Rong Siu, same as glad, most of the time not free. actually, can lar, but not in a weekly sense of things

Sonya haven really gone out with her one on one. but i will soon. she's fun.

so, i have come to a conclusion that one cannot expect a permanent friend to go out with every week. because, it's not as if they dun have a life outside of going out with me to window shop. therefore, every week, i shall just try my luck and hope that a kind soul will go out with me. i think i just need a bigger social life. and like sonya wonders: how are we going to get into the market when we're standing outside its locked doors? except she din say the standing outside locked doors thing.

this is all too much to handle. * gives people a sly grin* you innocent people probably have no idea at all what i'm talking about. which is good. i dun want anyone accusing me of leading you astray or down the path to deep damnation.

but that's good. the more i have, the more chance i also have. irritating right? this crypticness thing?

*another sly grin*

but life is good. definately good. life is like eating dark chocolate. the initial bitter taste carefully concealing the slightly sweet after taste. and let's just say that i'm experienceing the slightly sweet taste right now. and god, it's good.

*i'm living in a dream world,
and i just dun wanna wake up
coz when i do,
there's nothing but wishful thinking.* --found this in a bk.

dreams are supposed to be part of your subconsious right? let's just say that if only dreams could come true... i'll probably be dead. and that's not in the bad sense. i wouldn't mind dying if the circumstances... and again, i'm not talking about getting murdered or anything. dreams. weird things that have little to do with reality, or do they? let's hope they do. btw, useless christine fact again: if you press ur hands on a person's vein on the neck (we each have 2), you can kill a person? that is if you press both at the same time and the person dies from lack of oxygen. but then again, if you just press one... there's this feeling of light-headedness? which may not be good if you need to be concerntrating on the present situations. but what if... someone was pressing that particular vein on ur neck in a totally unthreatening way? and then trailing a finger down from ur earlobe to ur neck? ahh.

nothing more is to be said. -_-;; *a totally crazy grin* ONCE MORE!!! LIFE IS GOOD!!! for now...

i'm feeling happy, happy happy happy. easter is today... lalalala... of course, it's not that i'm happpy just because i get to eat the chocolate eggs.. there's a deeper meaning behind the easter eggs. and i'm wondering where the hell the easter bunny is supposed to come in. in jesus's resurration, i know that eggs are a symbol of new life. and bunnies? are they supposed to be new life too? because they look oh so cute and small and fragile? maybe. but the good thing was that cheryl actually dragged her fat ass outta bed and made it to church. ^^ hard to believe? i thought so too.

argh. life is plain UNFAIR. guess i'm feeling the strain of being a sec 4. you know the essay we wanted to do? yeh, me and sonya came up with the factors already. without yy. *sobs* we actually wanted to start writing it but then we felt extremely lazy and if we did the essay without yy, it'll just be plain unfair. to us. hee. so of course we waited and gossiped. the gossip queens. no lar. but it's fun. talking to sonya, i mean.

wow, i cant believe that my music teacher actually felt happy with me enough to praise me on saturday. figures that practicing your scales until 100++ would make her happy. it's not easy you know. we hafta go back to school tomorrow. no need for reminders, eh, people? well, it'll be the start of a brand new week. whoopie. i just can't contain my excitement. someone just shoot me.

i didn't even get to go out. i mean, on a shopping trip or anything fun like that. no dinner outside, no lunch at nice restuarents. and it really is not nice to have your parents think that you need to keep the drinking problem down. wad drinking problem? i dun think i have a drinking problem. i just drink more than the average 16 yr old, that's all. "she went to denmark and came back a drunkard." right. their famous phrase. pick of the year. so wad if i drank more than 4 glasses there? champagne, white and red wine. very good quality too. i need a drink. just kidding, but i can control it, you see. and it's not as if i'll try to solve my problems with drinking. right? of course not. i'll solve my problems with screaming the whole house down and making my mum mad. that's the only logical solution.

hey, nette? wad did yy do to you? wad did she do???!!!! you're practically praising the very ground she walks on!! have you been brainwashed? ok, i know yy's cute and everything, and she's always there for people, but god! too much praise is a bad thing for yy, since we dun want her head to get anymore swollen than it already is, ja? ok, me sister is cursing bad words. and spitting at me. gtg.

simon cowell has got to be one of the top 10 most sarcastic people in the world. but damnit, he's good. i dun think i'll even bother to watch american idol if it weren't for him. yeh, guess i like sarcasm. and ranking him below spongebob squarepants? do people have a brain? spongebob is evil, pure evil in that innocent yellow form of a square. he's the kind of cartoon character our parents should be warning us about. he seems to have this evil glint in his eye, ah hah, i've got you... at this moment, there's only spongebob to watch, it's either that or homework... i choose the yellow square. help.

sonya's pretty fun. she'll kill me if she knew i wrote that. or maybe not. i'm rather shocked that she didn't know about my rather dirty mindset. kinky. i mean, she did know, but maybe she didn't know to what extend it was screwed. and we need lives, i mean, mine is frankly good, but at times, pathetic. really pathetic. it's so pathetic that i rather watch moss grow than even comtemplate how bad my life has become. maybe not bad, in particular, but boring like hell. but then again, hell isn't boring. someone's always getting punished there. and hahaha, finally, reload 2 is out. but it's out in jap, so we'll most prob hafta wait a while before it comes out in chinese.

stupid christine personality fact: i am cynical. rarely nice to people unless they're nice to me first. and i wonder how i get friends. *shakes head* but still, my personality seems to be working fine with me. as well as my friends. thou yy has threathened me before that i shouldnt be too sarcastic since my temper flares up easily and i explode on innocent people like her.

stupid christine anything in particular fact: gwee always calls when you're asleep or half awake. she called just to ask if i wanted my last test of the pga to be end of april or end of may. guess we've got a choice since the SARS thing set everything back to dunno when. and then, she said that urm, we had lots to prepare and i put my foot in my mouth by saying no lar, where got? and she gave me a long speech on the importance of preparation and the things that might come out. sometimes, i regret taking pga, so many things to prepare., i'm sec 4, come on. gimme a break? i know she's worried, but why worry so much? it's fate if i dun get it. so wad? ok, that sounded kinda mean, but well, i'm so freaking scared by the whole thing, (i wasn't at first) until she started scaring me. argh.

had a pretty cool day, with the exception of PE, i think it's crazy, more than 300 skips, and weights!! i know we've gotta prepare for the NAPFA and all that but please, we've just had like 2 weeks without any training! so, i know that i'll suffer for it tomorrow with aches all over.

and.. hmm, started talking to chris today, and well, it's always weird that chris is talking to chris. haha. knowing lynnette? if she reads this, she'll go.," who's chris>? your bf isit?" nope! he's just a guy. a 19 year old guy more than a continant away. with green eyes!! how cool is that? romeo and juliet stupid fact: Paris has green eyes. the only thing neo's good for? making frens. yeh.

sonya told us today. her cockroaches have expanded and gone global. she has german cockroaches in her room. icks. i laughed. i think that yy and sonya and i can be pretty materialistic at times. we did group work for an essay and we chose the harder topics, er, what is the measure of success or something like that. and we were like 3 cars, big house, lots of money, and 10 model boyfrens. (sonya said that).. and maybe i agree too... i'm still waiting for my wishlist to come true

wishlist:
condo ( i'll settle for nothing less)
CEO of a company (that's doing great with a payroll i can only dream of)
car ( ferrari!!!!)
tour of europe with yy
and the life long friendship of my friends, though i know i already have that. right? sonya? and yy? *grinz*

the hot great husband and kids come later. though it has to come by 30. and he better make more money than me, only thru that can i start my world domination plan. world domination needs money, lots of money. and he better be as cute as yan cheng xu. yar right, dream on babe. great. i'm doing the babe thing, all thanks to sonya. love ya guys.

urm. other people? dun bother with reading what i wrote, it does not apply to you, only to this cuckoo, who dared to write these messages.

hi. pardon me. but i find the narcisstic one very true. -__-
oh. i am so sorry. but i dunno what will happen to me, my dearie. muahaha i am so scared of u!!! muM!!!!!!! -__-

now, wad's so bad about this kinda thing? nothing. in fact, i wouldnt mind it so much if the person had left a name. since the person has things to say, they should say it and leave a name. apparently, the person wanted to say this things but was too cowardly and jerky to tell me her name.

Now, i normally would not spend all my time writing in response to an asshole who wrote in my guestbook. well, i've got a few things to say,
1) you're an asshole ( but i bet you knew that already)
2) i wish you'll die a horrible death, at the hands of a madman who tortures you with the playing of Sick Sick World by Rancid forever until you rather die(a sick song for a sick person like you)
3) you never succeed in life and live a miserable existance
4) fuck off (i bet you know by now that i've no patience for idiots who try my patience. geddit?)
5) if you are indeed my friend, i suggest you jump off a cliff, and when you do, i hope your skull will crack against the cliff edge and spill your life's blood into the sea. i hope i'll also be there to watch
6) but if you ARE really my friend, you wouldnt torture me like this would you? i dun think so.
7) not many people have called me vain, which IS the meaning of the word narcissistic, and if you didn't know that before, that means you need to buy a dictionary or get a new brain. i don;t think you know me well.

i think i'll be really upset if i'm right that you're my friend.
i know a lit question, trace christine's emotional state right from when she started her blog to her most recent entry. see how she's matured from just plain screaming at assholes to being able to say everything in a rather calm tone of voice. i am being calm now, apparently, i realised that assholes should be ignored but i made an ecception JUST for you. be glad. you're obviously one in a million. anything else to comment on, you freak?
thanks for being so patient in reading this. i realised that this is the most fun thing i have done so far today.

and yy!!! no, i din send you the mail on purpose, i know he's the most wonderful, sweet, cute, guy you know. i'm not criticizing that! just thought i'll send you the mail for fun. figures you're jump to conclusions... grr. *laughs insanely* but seriously, THE MAIL WAS JUST FOR FUN, SO GET A GRIP. hee

and hor, your guestbook!! cannot load, so i have no choice but to say whatever it is to you that i wanna say. and i dun even know if you read my blog. so... *shrugs shoulders* anyway, you aint online, so i think i'll go offline to call ya.

yicks, first really full day learning away from yy... so sad, i mean, now no one's going to talk to me about moist chocolate cake that melts in your mouth. but, the good thing, if there is indeed one, is that i apparently learn more than i ever had sitting away from her! must be coz so bored i actually listen to lessons. everyone's so quiet coz they're all not sitting with their good friends. i wonder how i'm going to get thru this year without dying of boredom. yy!!! *sobs and cries*

aiyar. so much maths homework. i wonder why? coz the maths teachers are crazy! mrs yeo is counting down the mouths to our prelims. like i dun even enuf of that at home with my mum. it's bad enough when your teacher does it but when your mum does it??? i mean, you live with that person!! fell asleep right after i came home and slept until 7, was so tired and i could have sworn i had a headache that threatened to rip open my skull any minute. switched on the radio to 9.33, but changed it to some piano pieces (classical) and fell asleep. out like a light. and had really scary dreams about how i went to school and we had our maths Os. and the thing was, i din know it was the maths Os. i tot it was physics. i mean, LAME. what i contrast to what i wanted to dream about.

ok, so it aint so bad. right......... and btw, people, please use the guestbook 2 from 30 april onwards, or forget it, start to use it now! it's a drab and boring colour rite now but i never claimed to be a html genius. i hate school. i hate my life. and i just realised i have to call rong siu again! because i forgot to tell her something. xian! lalalala

i hate html. i hate it so bad!!! argh.

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for money, caused scandals with prostitutes and
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warning for all those that cant stand the f word and will insist that i wash my mouth with soap. so sorry for offending ur delicate sense of watever. i have sinned. this sometimes happens when i'm not in the right state of mind and jus decided to make my life more miserable by doing more and more quizzes.


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whoops..

my life has officially taken on a very weird turn. i swear these tests are so not accurate. laugh. "What kind of porno would you star in?" in no right turn of mind would i take this, but i swear, sonya!!!! i'm going to cry.

and the result??? let's hope i never find this out. or maybe not. the picture's too kinky to put.
Bondage movie! You're into BSDM (Bondage & Discipline, Dominance & Submission) and chances are, you're fond of whips, chains, harnesses, and tight leather outfits.


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hmph, really. be a little more sarcastic will ya?

great. how would u kill someone? i'll kill someone by the sword... now, where do u find that nowadays???

What element would you rein over? Goddess of the Night. Beautiful yet a strange darkness and sadness lurk about you.,.. haha. really?


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finally, something good.

as always, i torture myself doing all this. i have no life and am jus a pathetic fool. fine, i'm not, i'm jus pathetic

wad's wrong with stupid everything?? har har har? i ask u!! ok, i may be a little deranged from staying home for too long... but i ask you! is it too hard to ask?? answer me!! yyyyyy? now, better take note that i do not know what i want you to answer, but i'm posing this question to the whole infinite universe!! WHY me har? i never have a good life.
sonya says, i need a guy... really meh? ok lar, so i sometimes say that... but i cant help it if i feel lonely!

so bored that i'm going to write a will here.

to yy, i leave you the best friendship u'll ever get, (cocky me) a shoulder to cry on in times of need, an arm to squeeze if u feel like it, a ear to listen when you're bored, and all of my comic books. and anything else that you want that's mine. (that's how much i value your friendship), my obsession with sanzo and homura and saiyuki

to sonya, i leave you my most sarcastic comments, the pokes i sometime give you, my non-existant linkin park cd (i swear i'll get it someday), my frequent hugs and all my support of the PAP!!! haha... and like yy, the best friendship u'll have, and also anything else of mine that you want.

to my sis, i leave you my neopets account, (good may it do for you), an everlasting supply of nonsense, and all the good times we've had discussing neopets and saiyuki. and my a1 cds.

to benita, i leave... my good marks?? a few belated presents, and a lot of smiles. and all the good times we spend discussing useless topics.

to dorothy, i leave... my faith in you that u'll succeed in everything you do, our outings in primary 6 as well as in secondary school

to nette, i leave you my goodwill towards men as well as spur of the moment talks

to peggy, i leave you a guy... u need a bf.

to glad, i leave you my X comics, my obession with kigai yuuto (but not yue, never yue), ok heck, my obsession with yue, and urm... some of my sarcastic comments, a few whacks on the head, and some guides photos

to rong, i leave you MYNAH patrol, dun let me down. my PL post, as well as my faith in ur ability to lead.

to chun jia, i leave you my attendance lists, and my F4 cds as well as meteor garden and my love of yan cheng xu.

to june, i leave you the letters you've been faithfully writing, as well as patrol photos...

to ming, i leave you all the good and well deserved whacks, the non-existant time we wanted to play mahjong, and one last good whack on ur head. u need it. as well as my obsession with yue, (but u gotta share with glad too )

to grace see, i leave my cold jokes ( if i have any), as well as the fun i've had in guides. amd my obsession with homura and sanzo (muz share with yy)

to nicky nick nick..... haaaaaaaaaaaahaaaaa... my sarcastic and almost insane laughter, love your name, i'll purposely call u nicky since u told me it sounded sissified. stoopid boy.

to myself, i leave the world (which i have yet to take over)

i hate SARS. i hate it more than school. sure, i like any normal human being likes to stay home, like a holiday, ja? well, too bad, guess again... mountains of homework, piling up like no tomorrow... i feel like screaming. i mean, there's more homework than what would normally be given during even a partial holiday!

irritating... it's not like i want to spend all my free time doing homework, and stupid ffnet is down AGAIN, right in the middle of me reading a totally good fic. crap. and my mum's just bursting to tell me all about the joys of science. AGAIN. there is a limit until i break u know. pooh.

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yet again, i am so not surprised

ok... so i blog around about useless stuff and i never stop to think... y dun i put in those few days of pga camp? so, i'll do it now.

hmm... was ok, pretty much ok, not torture like i expected it to be like some guides camps i've been to, but it was tiring. and it didnt help that i was sick the night before, and so couldnt be as much help as i would like to have given to eileen and to joyce. i mean, how bad is that>? i always feel sick during camps!
hmm... the whole programme got pushed back by a long period of time... and i was basically feeling ok by the time the outdoor activities came to an end. at nite, i din want to bathe, i know, people are going to say ewwww... but no one really wans to bathe during camp... but eileen MADE me. and gim yean, the crez girls, and cheryl and me... we jus sat and talked in lodge 2 until about 2... that was fun.
i liked the nite's activities, the nite hike, really tested my courage... when the time came to sleep, i was not that tired and i couldnt sleep!! really wished my bed was there with me too. XP
it rained before my activity, the campfire... but at least it din rain during my activity, like one of the candiates. seo hoon and yi huey were a big help!!! thanks. i had to drag the time during the campfire and i messed up the whole specially done sequence of events that i planned up. i had to come up with a game on the spot and teach people new songs jus to drag time. unprepared!!! and the fire, god, dun want to talk about that. but in the end, everyone tot they had screwed up their own activity, so i;ll jus haf to wait until god knows when until my results come out...
but the good thing of this whole pga thing is that i made frens, close frens that i wun forget...